I'm consistently surprised by the big man upstairs. today was no different.
this morning i woke up as per usual and did the daily routine, as i was getting ready to leave the house to meet Keith at KAP, i noticed that my rosary ring and my necklace with my silver cross on my table. I haven't worn them in months and so i suddenly had the urge to wear them today.
that's where all the fun starts.
So I met Keith and had breakfast before we met up with everyone else at CJC for the ELL symposium. which by the way, was extremely interesting and really captured my interest. If i go to CJC, that'll definitely be my choice for a subject. but the real beauty of today was after the talk.
I finally had the chance to catch up with Kevin after so long. that was awesome. went to Pizza Hut in Toa Payoh with a bunch of the SJI guys + Kevin and then rode back with Kevin. Talking to Kevin, it really made me realise how much i've been holding myself back from expressing myself lately. I kept telling myself not to be a burden for someone else to the extent that i completely forgot to express myself altogether.
Walking back home from the bus stop, i began thinking about how i don't exactly have that "best" friend. Someone i know i can always count on and be able to do whatever lame thing with. and just then i heard someone shout my name from above. Turns out that it was Nathanael who was at the carpark rooftop asking me to help him get a shuttlecock. He was here to have bonding time with his cell group. like whoa, Nat's a cell group leader. haha. well, for those who've known Nat and I since Primary school, you'd know that Nat and I were Best Friends from P3-P5.
So remember when i said i was saying i haven't exactly had a real conversation about my life with anyone lately? I had the conversation of a lifetime with Nat on the rooftop. yeah, my bladder was bursting while i stood there with him, but it didn't seem to matter because that conversation was so... what's the word i'm looking for... powerful? We caught up 5 years of lost friendship and started on a clean slate. That was great.
Yeah i realise it's not that clear a story, but it's been truly a wonderful and emotional day. Walking back home from the carpark, i was literally smiling to myself saying "God, you really love to play with me don't you.".
I've realised that God always seems to find the perfect ways to bring me back to see his glory whenever i begin to feel spiritually weakened. He ALWAYS seems to find a way to make me believe again. I truly believe today was no little coincedence. I truly believe it was planned to coincide with my doubts and tribulations.
But most importantly for me, today i received the closure and the apology that i've waited for for 5 years. it was truly, renewing. and now, i have my best friend again. Let's hope this will last.
signing off,
julian hallems
i'm just your typical forteen year old boy. adolescent, dealing with growing pains just as any other normal human teenager would. except what sets me apart is that i go by the name of
glen and i am the supposed owner of this forsaken web page. i'm odd in the way that i have very frequent moodswings and i argue a lot with everyone - including my best friend. so i guess i'm your typical, not-so-typical guy.
i'm just who i am. metro, a SNAG and the oh-so-annoying bitch. lazy, cranky and irritable in every way. just living out my life as normal as i possibly can. with friends that can hurt me to the core and enemies that surprise me. it's no wonder i keep this blog.
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