well, mid years are officially over. though for some reason i'm not all that excited that it's over. i feel like just meeting someone, sitting down and stoning for 3 hours. shrugs. mid years took a lot out of me i guess. ___ and ___ are quarelling again, and i've learnt to be a little more quiet in school. you can sense when you're not really welcome amongst a bunch of people. sometimes it's best for both to just stay away from each other? even though no reason might be given. right ___ ____? right ________? right ___ ____? right _____?
well i shall stop complaining there.
I think there may be a chance i'm getting used to the idea of selective mutism. there was an article about it the other day. seemed interesting enough. shrugs. i'm beginning to dread the idea of going online to msn. it's terribly dreary to find out everyday about how many people i've lost contact with. i've just got nothing to say anymore. haha. i used to rant to these people a lot. but i'm trying to stop.
in a way i guess i've changed a lot in the past 2 weeks particularly. although everyone just thinks i'm just being some depressed kid crying out for attention. maybe i am. maybe i'm not. who really defines these things? i guess what i'm trying to say is that as long as it's not appropriate or absolutely necessary, i'll just stay out of everything. i think that's best for me, for my friends and especially the "friends" who now hate my guts.
sometimes i really wonder, what can i do to seek forgiveness? i can't even speak to them, and i sure as hell have no guts to go up to them and have a confrontation. gah. maybe i do need someone to talk to about all this. and it sure as hell is not going to be anyone religious, no professional psychiatrist or whoever. i just need a friend i suppose. a real friend. though, being left behind about 5 times before already, i can't exactly trust people much. but i tried. and i got backstabbed and threatened with it at least 5-6 times already. so screw people, seriously. i hate the world. i hate people. i hate feeling like this.
but anyways.
happy birthday nick fung, i hope you'll stop hating me soon.signing off,
julian hallems
i'm just your typical forteen year old boy. adolescent, dealing with growing pains just as any other normal human teenager would. except what sets me apart is that i go by the name of
glen and i am the supposed owner of this forsaken web page. i'm odd in the way that i have very frequent moodswings and i argue a lot with everyone - including my best friend. so i guess i'm your typical, not-so-typical guy.
i'm just who i am. metro, a SNAG and the oh-so-annoying bitch. lazy, cranky and irritable in every way. just living out my life as normal as i possibly can. with friends that can hurt me to the core and enemies that surprise me. it's no wonder i keep this blog.
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